Thursday, January 5, 2012

I Wish Time Would Hurry Up And Slow Down

I'm doing a lot of soul searching and praying lately about homeschooling Ben and Ali again. I just read this post over at the Holy Spirit-Led Homeschooling blog and sobbed while reading every last word. Go over there and check it out and I dare you not to get all teary-eyed. After I read this very thought provoking post, I left the following in the comments section of the post:

"Thank you for this beautiful post. I sobbed out loud throughout the entire reading. After much consideration, we finally decided to register our children for school this year. Our son (age 9) and daughter (age 7) both currently attend private school. However, we homeschooled our son during his kindergarten year. He then went to private school for first grade. The following year, he went back to private school for second grade, while I  home schooled our daughter that year for kindergarten. Last year, we home schooled both children (son was in 3rd grade and daughter was in 1st grade.) So, we have sort of went back and forth with private school and homeschool. We struggled all last summer trying to decide what to do and praying about our decision. Our son was convinced that he wanted to go back to school....he missed his friends. My daughter had never attended school, at the point, and expressed (very vocally) that she did NOT want to go to school. In the end, we sent them - thinking it would be fun for our daughter to have the "real" school experience, one that she had never had up until that point. Plus, our son said he missed his friends....and I thought I might have more time to clean the house. Huh? Ridiculous, I now realize. Well, four days after starting school, my daughter didn't want to be there and ran away from her teacher down the hall (kicking and screaming, literally) because she missed me. Also, it probably only took two months (tops) for our son to realize that, even though his friends are great, he would still rather be at home....with us. Eventually, our daughter accepted going to school and has adjusted to the routine fine. Our son was on the school soccer team and is now finishing up basketball season with the school's team. So, it hasn't been terrible and they never come home crying at the end of the day. However, they regularly express their desire to be home again with us, instead of going to school. Though my days have been more quiet than if they were home with me, I have never really adjusted to having them gone all day, every day. It just hasn't felt right, since the beginning of the school year....something feels off. Don't get me wrong, it's a very nice school, small and personable. There are no real problems, to speak of. Something just feels "off" when I send them "off" to school each day  It was during their recent Christmas vacation that we realized just how much they want to be home with us and just how much we want them home, too. Though they said everything is fine at school and they both have many friends, they miss us when they're there. They went back yesterday, after their Christmas break. The night before, when I was putting our children to bed, my son (with a single tear streaming down his face) said something that stopped me in my tracks. He said that, although he misses us when he's at school and really wants to be homeschooled, he will do whatever we think is best. It nearly broke my heart. So, hear I sit - reading your post and a house that is no cleaner than if my kids were here with me and I have to ask myself: what is best?? They miss us and WANT to be home with us. We miss them and WANT them to be home, too. So, what's the point of sending them off for 7 hours every day? What's the point of paying tuition when I can be here for them? What can they learn and gain by going to school that they can't learn and gain from being home? Thank you so much for this post and for reminding us that our children won't be children forever. Time, no matter how hard we try to slow it down, it just keeps ticking away. You have beautifully stated how I have been feeling. I believe that "off" feeling that I get when I send them off each day is God whispering to me. Whispering to me "you have the gift of time right now, use it wisely." Thank you for helping me hear Him!!!

Are you hearing a whisper from God about homeschooling? 
Yeah, me, too.

Monday, January 2, 2012


Monday, November 28, 2011

Monday, November 7, 2011

I Believe

What do you believe?

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Trick or Treat

Happy Halloween
from a jester and a in The Wizard of Oz.

Trick or treating at Grandma and Grampa's house.

And so begins the war of the Snickers, Kit Kats and Peanut M & Ms. 
Sadly, it's a battle I'm not prepared to win.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Easier Said Than Done

"we women have a lot to learn about simplifying our lives. we have
to decide what is important and then move along at a pace that is
comfortable for us. we have to develop the maturity to stop trying
to prove something. we have to learn to be content with what we

I'll try.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

My First Blog Post This Year....and it's August.

Talk about taking a break. I can not believe my last post was last December. Now that's just pathetic. I almost think it might be better to start all over with a whole new pretend like that past 8 months didn't go undocumented. However, lots of life has happened during those 8 months. Lots of important stuff. Like, most recently, Ben and Ali starting school. Not home school. School as in a building that I drive them to. My heart is a little (lot) broken this week

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Monday, December 20, 2010

Go Ahead.....Elf Yourself.

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Saturday, December 11, 2010

I just ate a big plate of chocolate cake, vanilla ice cream and homemade chocolate chip cookies.

Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to me.
Today I turned 43.

The end.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Christmas Craft Show Open House

My Mom and I hosted a craft show at my house over the weekend. My Mom used to do craft shows with my older sister back in the 90's but this was new territory for me. Although I have recently developed an interest in all things crafty I have little craft experience to speak of. We came up with the idea at the end of September sitting in the garage during our garage sale but we didn't really REALLY decide to go for it until around Halloween. So, basically 6 weeks to throw the whole thing together - and that included actually MAKING all of the crafts!!! Talk about a crash course for this girl who, two months ago, didn't know one end of a glue gun from the other! Anyway, my Dad (who will be 80 years old in March) put up a bunch of signs for us (in the snowing 20 degrees weather - thank you Dad!) and my husband made homemade cookies and hot apple cider and kept the fireplace going as we nervously opened the doors! I think the snow kept some people away but we did have some visitors throughout the weekend and most of them actually bought something! Really? Something I made. You actually want. to. pay. money. for. something. I. made? Really? Get out!

We even had a drawing to give away some fresh cut trees that we grew on our property! We had them on the porch as people came in the front door. :)

Here are a few snippets of our "craft shop".....

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Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Long Time No Blog

I can't believe it's been 5 months since I lasted wrote here at Pajama Mama. Time sure can get away from a person. Back in June, I just felt like taking a break for a few days, weeks, whatever. Then all of a sudden, nearly 2 months had passed since my last post. Then on August 5th, my older brother Scott passed away suddenly. He was only 46 years old and his death was unexpected. So, blogging took a back seat, as many other things suddenly seemed more important than blogging. This is going to be short post but I just wanted to get the ball rolling again. I have been putting it off too long, so I just decided "spur of the moment" to write a short post just to let my blog friends know that I am still here and will be around occasionally. I look forward to catching up. I can't promise any kind of regularity but I plan on dropping in every once in a while. Hope that's ok with my blog buddies. :) Take care!

Ali and Ben having lunch on the first day of homeschool for this school year.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Dear Philadelphia, Thank You!